The title of this post states it all. I offically became a nurse on October 20th, 2010 at 2:00 pm. And It has been one of the greatest feelings and accomplishments in my life. It has been a difficult path, but God has been so good to me! And He has blessed me in so many ways that he has provided me a job and I didn't even have to look for it. :)
But I thank the Lord for all of the blessing and strength he has given me this past year. Because with God ALL things are possible!!! :)
Friday, October 22, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
God Will Provide
It has now been over a month since I have graduated the difficulties of nursing school. And no, it wasn't easy. Not like anything in life is ever really easy because in everything we do, we always have to start somewhere. And that somewhere is taking those "baby steps".
Therefore, I feel like I am an infant. I have been brought into the beautiful world of adulthood, I have taken my first breath, I have opened my adolescent eyes to something bigger, something breath-taking. But then I feel that between my adolecent/ beginning adult years have some what clashed together and I don't know how to simply explain it. When people ask me, "What do you do for a living?" I can only say that I am a graduate nurse. I am not a "real" nurse (yet). Well, why?Because I have to pay hundreds of dollars into taking a test that will license me, to prove to this world, that I am capable of taking care of the sick. Now, that's all fine and dandy. But it gets depressing and disappointing.
Because...
(1) I have always been told, that you will ALWAYS have a job. Because this is a field that is needed of workers. Well the disappointing part of the "ALWAYS" statement is that it is false. It is very difficult to find a job. Unless you live in the metroplex, then there is a slight chance of hope that your white tennis shoe might get into the door of nursing. But other than that...nope. You better pray that someone gets fired pretty soon, so you can have their spot. And though this might not be completely accurate, in my world, well...that is how I see it. It is one vicious cycle, and hopefully you are the lucky winner.
(2)I am scared that I will fail my boards.
Now, I believe that God has brought me through this, so I will not fail. Because though every test, clinical, final. And when I was on the verge of failing, My God who is so great, helped me through in many ways that it almost seemed impossible. So, my fear of not passing seems ridiculous. But I am human, I am not perfect. So I get afaid. But all in all my God will provide.
So...pretty mucht there is not much to say. Except that it can be very depressing entering the adult world, But God is faithful and he always waiting to help in every turn, bump and scratch. Because there is that peaceful valley up ahead and I know that I will be able to carry on.
Therefore, I feel like I am an infant. I have been brought into the beautiful world of adulthood, I have taken my first breath, I have opened my adolescent eyes to something bigger, something breath-taking. But then I feel that between my adolecent/ beginning adult years have some what clashed together and I don't know how to simply explain it. When people ask me, "What do you do for a living?" I can only say that I am a graduate nurse. I am not a "real" nurse (yet). Well, why?Because I have to pay hundreds of dollars into taking a test that will license me, to prove to this world, that I am capable of taking care of the sick. Now, that's all fine and dandy. But it gets depressing and disappointing.
Because...
(1) I have always been told, that you will ALWAYS have a job. Because this is a field that is needed of workers. Well the disappointing part of the "ALWAYS" statement is that it is false. It is very difficult to find a job. Unless you live in the metroplex, then there is a slight chance of hope that your white tennis shoe might get into the door of nursing. But other than that...nope. You better pray that someone gets fired pretty soon, so you can have their spot. And though this might not be completely accurate, in my world, well...that is how I see it. It is one vicious cycle, and hopefully you are the lucky winner.
(2)I am scared that I will fail my boards.
Now, I believe that God has brought me through this, so I will not fail. Because though every test, clinical, final. And when I was on the verge of failing, My God who is so great, helped me through in many ways that it almost seemed impossible. So, my fear of not passing seems ridiculous. But I am human, I am not perfect. So I get afaid. But all in all my God will provide.
So...pretty mucht there is not much to say. Except that it can be very depressing entering the adult world, But God is faithful and he always waiting to help in every turn, bump and scratch. Because there is that peaceful valley up ahead and I know that I will be able to carry on.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
The Wise
Proverbs refers to this person as prudent, understanding, discerning, upright, good, and righteous. These are the good guys. This is what Solomon is praying and hoping that his son will become.
"A wise man will hear, and will increase learning: and a man of understanding shall attain unto wise counsels." (Proverbs 1:5) "Give instruction to a wise man, and will be yet wiser: teach a just man, and he will increase in learning" (Proverbs 9:9). "The heart of the prudent getteth knowledge; and the ear of the wise seeketh knowledge" (Proverbs 18:15).
These guys had the best life, by far - hands down. Do a simple survey of a few chapters in proverbs. Richie Rich, Bill Gates, and all of the lottery winners in history never had it this good. God takes care of these people, because they honored Him. These guy's had God's blessing solid direction, and quick discernment. They have an enormous advantage over the other three people groups because they "get it". They see things that these other groups completely miss. They understand. They know.
To the other three people groups, these guy's are just really, really, really, lucky. They would say..."Wow you're lucky!" It's not luck. It's the path of rightousness. It's the road less travled - the path of less resistance. It's the high road, the safe route, the narrow path. It's doing what is right, and it aligns your life on a collison course with God's best blessings.
The Good news - this is not an exclusive group of naturally gifted. No, anyone can be in this group. In fact, anyone from any life stage or social class can be in anyone of these four groups. These descriptions are about the heart quality and core character - not about social status or family income.
How do you get into this group? By asking. God clearly says, "if any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not, and it shall be given unto him" (James 1:5). If you ask, you can have this wisdom. If you recieve instruction, hear God's word, and accept His truth, you can have this life.
"A wise man will hear, and will increase learning: and a man of understanding shall attain unto wise counsels." (Proverbs 1:5) "Give instruction to a wise man, and will be yet wiser: teach a just man, and he will increase in learning" (Proverbs 9:9). "The heart of the prudent getteth knowledge; and the ear of the wise seeketh knowledge" (Proverbs 18:15).
These guys had the best life, by far - hands down. Do a simple survey of a few chapters in proverbs. Richie Rich, Bill Gates, and all of the lottery winners in history never had it this good. God takes care of these people, because they honored Him. These guy's had God's blessing solid direction, and quick discernment. They have an enormous advantage over the other three people groups because they "get it". They see things that these other groups completely miss. They understand. They know.
To the other three people groups, these guy's are just really, really, really, lucky. They would say..."Wow you're lucky!" It's not luck. It's the path of rightousness. It's the road less travled - the path of less resistance. It's the high road, the safe route, the narrow path. It's doing what is right, and it aligns your life on a collison course with God's best blessings.
The Good news - this is not an exclusive group of naturally gifted. No, anyone can be in this group. In fact, anyone from any life stage or social class can be in anyone of these four groups. These descriptions are about the heart quality and core character - not about social status or family income.
How do you get into this group? By asking. God clearly says, "if any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not, and it shall be given unto him" (James 1:5). If you ask, you can have this wisdom. If you recieve instruction, hear God's word, and accept His truth, you can have this life.
Monday, August 2, 2010
The Four People-Types of Proverbs
I have been reading this book from Cary Schmidt called Life Quest and when I read this section of the book it touched mt hearts and I wanted to share. Part one will talk about - The Wise.
"The Bible is filled with passages that address these issues of ignorance and rebellion. (Earlier chapters he was discussing about how young adults in our society today feel as though they can be ignorant and rebel.) But none so repeatedly and pointedly as Proverbs. The point of the book of Proverbs is to make stupid people wise and to give rebelious people a second chance before it is too late. This is a book written from a father to a son, and because the Bible is God's word, Proverbs is also a book from your Heavenly Father to you!
Throughout the book, the father (Solomon) is pleading with the son (Rehoboam) to hear his words, receive instruction, and give his heart to the teachings. THis is a father on a a mission. He has seen somethings, made some mistakes, wrecked some lives. He has experienced the price of his own stupidity - his own ignorance and rebellion in many areas, and now he writes his son in pleading tones, hoping that he will avoid the same fate.
Early in Chapter One he writes, "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; but fools despise wisdom and instruction. My son, hear the instruction of thy father and forsake not the law of my mother" (Proverbs 1: 7-8). Un other words, knowledge (the opposite of ignorance) begins with God! "My son, please hear my instruction and don't forsake it!" Can you hear his passionate panic? Can you feel his fervent fear for his son?...Turn away from ignorance and rebellion that is so popular and accepted in your culture and flee back to the Lord and his plans for your life! Please.
Throughout the book of Proverbs, Solomon repeatdly describes for kinds of people on this planet. He constantly contrasts the way they think, the way they live, and the end that they will find. He begs his son to see his life with the destination in view - to see the end from the beginning, and to live from that perspective. He was of the danger of the wrong path and expounds the blessing of the right path.
You too will be surrounded by those kinds of people. They personify the message of this chapter. You are one of them yourself. What are these four types of people?
1. The wise
2. The simple
3. The fool
4. The scorner
Honestly ask the Lord to show you which catagory you fit into right now. By the way, if you're in a catagory other than the wise, you don't have to stay there."
Part Two...to be continued - The Wise
"The Bible is filled with passages that address these issues of ignorance and rebellion. (Earlier chapters he was discussing about how young adults in our society today feel as though they can be ignorant and rebel.) But none so repeatedly and pointedly as Proverbs. The point of the book of Proverbs is to make stupid people wise and to give rebelious people a second chance before it is too late. This is a book written from a father to a son, and because the Bible is God's word, Proverbs is also a book from your Heavenly Father to you!
Throughout the book, the father (Solomon) is pleading with the son (Rehoboam) to hear his words, receive instruction, and give his heart to the teachings. THis is a father on a a mission. He has seen somethings, made some mistakes, wrecked some lives. He has experienced the price of his own stupidity - his own ignorance and rebellion in many areas, and now he writes his son in pleading tones, hoping that he will avoid the same fate.
Early in Chapter One he writes, "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; but fools despise wisdom and instruction. My son, hear the instruction of thy father and forsake not the law of my mother" (Proverbs 1: 7-8). Un other words, knowledge (the opposite of ignorance) begins with God! "My son, please hear my instruction and don't forsake it!" Can you hear his passionate panic? Can you feel his fervent fear for his son?...Turn away from ignorance and rebellion that is so popular and accepted in your culture and flee back to the Lord and his plans for your life! Please.
Throughout the book of Proverbs, Solomon repeatdly describes for kinds of people on this planet. He constantly contrasts the way they think, the way they live, and the end that they will find. He begs his son to see his life with the destination in view - to see the end from the beginning, and to live from that perspective. He was of the danger of the wrong path and expounds the blessing of the right path.
You too will be surrounded by those kinds of people. They personify the message of this chapter. You are one of them yourself. What are these four types of people?
1. The wise
2. The simple
3. The fool
4. The scorner
Honestly ask the Lord to show you which catagory you fit into right now. By the way, if you're in a catagory other than the wise, you don't have to stay there."
Part Two...to be continued - The Wise
Saturday, July 31, 2010
For when I am tried and purified, I shall come forth as gold.
The other night, I was in a bit of stuggle and confusion. With only two weeks left till graduation, Instead of being estatic. I found myself feeling as though I was thrown into a sea of sharks. Now that sounds pretty intense or it might not even make any sense, but at that time anything felt like a wave of "struggle".
Since August of last year, I entered into a program in which I didn't think I would make it. They describe it as the Basic Training or Boot Camp for Nursing School. I pretty much scoffed at the thought because, I am Viviana. I can do anything. Though my pride fell and I soon quickly realized, I am Viviana, I cannot do anything without God. I learned that without Him, I will fall, I will struggle, an I will fail. I have lived my life, knowing that through everything no matter what the circumstances maybe - "God is good and He is ALWAYS right." After completeing my fist semester of nursing school, I felt as though I could accomplish everything. I felt as though everything in my world was okay. It wasn't not personally. I put my focus on other things that didn't pertain to school, in which towards the end of that first semester I almost didn't make it. I thank the Lord now that, the hinderence that could have made me drop out of nursing school is not in my life anymore. I enterned my second semester with a whole new attitude of - "I can do ALL things through Christ..." and that He will provide for me every step of the way. Life became simple again, not as easy but it was simple and it was wonderful.
I know now that for some reason God has provided everything He had for me for a special purpose. Because we are here on purpose for a purpose. Though as I felt that I knew what that purpose was for my life, I really don't. And I still don't. I'm trying to figure that out everyday of my life. I can't see the full picture only God can, and for that I'm so blessed that He knows what path I am going to take, and it is my hearts desire that, it will be the path that the Lord wants me to be on. People have failed me many times, but God has never failed me.
But now it's time for me to grow up. I am not that teenage girl anymore who can live life having things just given to her. I am so blessed that my family has helped me through out my life and has given me everything I could ever have (not in a sense of things but of support and love.) I am quickly learning that the life of "adulthood" is not easy and that every choice I make now will affect the rest of my life. And I am so afraid of making the wrong choice. I don't want to fail my God. I want His perfect and only will for my life. And I sit here today afraid of what the future could bring. But I know that he will give me peace in my heart and that I will be doing his will, because that is my only desire. I was reading the book of Ruth, the other night and this verse touched my heart, Ruth had a desire. And I pray that I have the strength she had, and the faith she had to trust that God would give her the life he wanted for her.
Ruth 1:16 says: "And Ruth said, Entreat me not to leave thee, or to return from the following after thee: for whither thou goest, I will go; and where thou lodgest, I will lodge, thy people shall be my people, and thy God my God."
What a perfect example of submission and faith. I know that Ruth didn't know what was going to happen with her life, but she trusted with staying with Naomi would be better for her.
I might not be making any sense, I guess I'm just typing to let everything go. But after August 12th my life will be changed, and with the Lord's help and blessing, his perfect plan will start to unfold, this is just the beginning of my journey and I want it to be pleasing to Him.
God never moves without purpose or plan.
When trying His servant and molding a man.
Give thanks to the Lord though your testing seems long;
In darkness He giveth a song.
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
I could not see through the shadows ahead;
So I looked at the cross of my Savior instead,
I bowed to the will of the Master that day;
Then peace came and tears fled away.
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
Now I can see testing comes from above,
God strengthens His children and purges in love.
My Father knows best, and I trust in His care;
Through purging more fruit I will bear.
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
Since August of last year, I entered into a program in which I didn't think I would make it. They describe it as the Basic Training or Boot Camp for Nursing School. I pretty much scoffed at the thought because, I am Viviana. I can do anything. Though my pride fell and I soon quickly realized, I am Viviana, I cannot do anything without God. I learned that without Him, I will fall, I will struggle, an I will fail. I have lived my life, knowing that through everything no matter what the circumstances maybe - "God is good and He is ALWAYS right." After completeing my fist semester of nursing school, I felt as though I could accomplish everything. I felt as though everything in my world was okay. It wasn't not personally. I put my focus on other things that didn't pertain to school, in which towards the end of that first semester I almost didn't make it. I thank the Lord now that, the hinderence that could have made me drop out of nursing school is not in my life anymore. I enterned my second semester with a whole new attitude of - "I can do ALL things through Christ..." and that He will provide for me every step of the way. Life became simple again, not as easy but it was simple and it was wonderful.
I know now that for some reason God has provided everything He had for me for a special purpose. Because we are here on purpose for a purpose. Though as I felt that I knew what that purpose was for my life, I really don't. And I still don't. I'm trying to figure that out everyday of my life. I can't see the full picture only God can, and for that I'm so blessed that He knows what path I am going to take, and it is my hearts desire that, it will be the path that the Lord wants me to be on. People have failed me many times, but God has never failed me.
But now it's time for me to grow up. I am not that teenage girl anymore who can live life having things just given to her. I am so blessed that my family has helped me through out my life and has given me everything I could ever have (not in a sense of things but of support and love.) I am quickly learning that the life of "adulthood" is not easy and that every choice I make now will affect the rest of my life. And I am so afraid of making the wrong choice. I don't want to fail my God. I want His perfect and only will for my life. And I sit here today afraid of what the future could bring. But I know that he will give me peace in my heart and that I will be doing his will, because that is my only desire. I was reading the book of Ruth, the other night and this verse touched my heart, Ruth had a desire. And I pray that I have the strength she had, and the faith she had to trust that God would give her the life he wanted for her.
Ruth 1:16 says: "And Ruth said, Entreat me not to leave thee, or to return from the following after thee: for whither thou goest, I will go; and where thou lodgest, I will lodge, thy people shall be my people, and thy God my God."
What a perfect example of submission and faith. I know that Ruth didn't know what was going to happen with her life, but she trusted with staying with Naomi would be better for her.
I might not be making any sense, I guess I'm just typing to let everything go. But after August 12th my life will be changed, and with the Lord's help and blessing, his perfect plan will start to unfold, this is just the beginning of my journey and I want it to be pleasing to Him.
God never moves without purpose or plan.
When trying His servant and molding a man.
Give thanks to the Lord though your testing seems long;
In darkness He giveth a song.
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
I could not see through the shadows ahead;
So I looked at the cross of my Savior instead,
I bowed to the will of the Master that day;
Then peace came and tears fled away.
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
Now I can see testing comes from above,
God strengthens His children and purges in love.
My Father knows best, and I trust in His care;
Through purging more fruit I will bear.
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
Monday, June 7, 2010
How deep the Father's Love for us
Perfection: The quality or state of being perfect; a state of completeness and flawlessness
In our lives, we can never gain perfection. In my life I wish I could in some way come close to grasping it, but I fail everytime. We all do. I seem to find myself looking for ways to improve myself, whether it's the way I look, how I do in school, at the hospital, and where I seem to fail so many times more...my walk with the Lord. If there was an easy road to gain perfection, I can't seem to find it. And I never will. The only thing that will bring me close to even cross paths with "perfection" is the holy word. We are to be "Christ-like" and Being in that likeness, and trying to live our lives the way our Savior walked, we come closer to living that way. But in his perfection, I still marvel at the love that he has for us. Because of my Savior, I can live the life I live today. Though I fail him many times, he is still there waiting with arms wide open, and is always willing to bring me back to the place where I belong and that is His will. Though I desire with all my heart to serve my Savior, the one who laid down his life for me, the one who paid my ransom. I never deserved in any way his love and his mercy, And by his wonderful grace, I am saved, and I am forever his. In my life I want to be perfect, not for selfish gains, but to be perfect in the eyes of my Savior and Lord. But knowing that if I delight myself in him and I desire to know more of Him and meditate in his law, he will grant me my desires and though I will never be perfect, my Savior still loves me and he will bless me.
How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure
How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory
Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocing voice,
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that helf Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I knoww that it is finished
I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast inJesus Christ
His death and resurrection
Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom
In our lives, we can never gain perfection. In my life I wish I could in some way come close to grasping it, but I fail everytime. We all do. I seem to find myself looking for ways to improve myself, whether it's the way I look, how I do in school, at the hospital, and where I seem to fail so many times more...my walk with the Lord. If there was an easy road to gain perfection, I can't seem to find it. And I never will. The only thing that will bring me close to even cross paths with "perfection" is the holy word. We are to be "Christ-like" and Being in that likeness, and trying to live our lives the way our Savior walked, we come closer to living that way. But in his perfection, I still marvel at the love that he has for us. Because of my Savior, I can live the life I live today. Though I fail him many times, he is still there waiting with arms wide open, and is always willing to bring me back to the place where I belong and that is His will. Though I desire with all my heart to serve my Savior, the one who laid down his life for me, the one who paid my ransom. I never deserved in any way his love and his mercy, And by his wonderful grace, I am saved, and I am forever his. In my life I want to be perfect, not for selfish gains, but to be perfect in the eyes of my Savior and Lord. But knowing that if I delight myself in him and I desire to know more of Him and meditate in his law, he will grant me my desires and though I will never be perfect, my Savior still loves me and he will bless me.
How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure
How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory
Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocing voice,
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that helf Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I knoww that it is finished
I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast inJesus Christ
His death and resurrection
Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom
Saturday, March 13, 2010
As the soft breeze blows, stand still and enjoy every moment around you...
“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” Psalms 37:4
Well it has been another long delay, with six more months left till I graduate, things have been getting a little more hectic in my life. So it's been one pretty crazy rollercoster ride so far. When you are looking into a career, when you don't know when anything could happen at any moment and when you have peoples lives in your hands, it gets a little frightening and frustrating. Because I will stand there at their bed and wonder if this is a lost soul, is it someone who I could be a testimony to, but then they tell us we are not allowed to express our 'beliefs' and that we must be a competent nurse and just do our job. So all I pray is that I can be just a testimony to that person. But then, sometimes I still sit and wonder is this what I'm really meant to do. I'm only 18. But then I have to remind myself that God has placed me here for a reason, and he has brought me this far for a reason and that I know I'm not going to fail because He has great and wonderful plans for me and my future, though I don't know what they are, and that I know there are going to be those times in my life when I don't think I will be able to face those storms, I know that He is good and that if I delight myself in Him, he will give me my desires. That is how wonderful and amazing our God is. :)
Though I am afraid and I get weary He is still there, He is still willing to help me through any circumstances that I face, my God will help me through it all.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Completed my first semester of nursing school!!!
Okay, now I can say that this is a record on how long I have not posted on here :) And a lot of stuff has happened since I've last posted on this blog!
But I happy to say that I have survived my first semester of college and now I have two more to go, before I can officially become an LVN! I'm really excited now, but I'm glad to just to be able to relax and not have the worries of school on my shoulders. The Lord has been so good to me since I've started because I know there were plenty of times when I felt that I was going to fail and not make it, and even to the point that I wanted to quit and find something new to do. But he helped me, because he is my strength, my rock, and my salvation, and he is so good that he let me realized that this was the path he wanted me on. And all I can say is that it is for my good and for his glory. My theme verse that I adopted this year at school was Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me." And has that been true, I sat before every test and quoted that verse till I truly believed that I can do all things through him. And it has made me realized that I need to have more faith and trust in my Lord, than always worrying about the negative.
So I'm ready to face all the stressfulness (lol) of nursing school when I go back in January with a new spirit, of doing all things through Christ!
But I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still alive. and will try to post more often!
But I happy to say that I have survived my first semester of college and now I have two more to go, before I can officially become an LVN! I'm really excited now, but I'm glad to just to be able to relax and not have the worries of school on my shoulders. The Lord has been so good to me since I've started because I know there were plenty of times when I felt that I was going to fail and not make it, and even to the point that I wanted to quit and find something new to do. But he helped me, because he is my strength, my rock, and my salvation, and he is so good that he let me realized that this was the path he wanted me on. And all I can say is that it is for my good and for his glory. My theme verse that I adopted this year at school was Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me." And has that been true, I sat before every test and quoted that verse till I truly believed that I can do all things through him. And it has made me realized that I need to have more faith and trust in my Lord, than always worrying about the negative.
So I'm ready to face all the stressfulness (lol) of nursing school when I go back in January with a new spirit, of doing all things through Christ!
But I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still alive. and will try to post more often!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Oh where, oh where has the sun disappeared to?
So here is another long delayed post again, in which I'm 'supposed' to be studying but yet get distracted by other wonderful things that do not involve studying for the nervous system.
So to bring everything up to date, I received amazing news that I have a 89.4 GPA (1 point away from a A!!!) So I was pretty happy, I gets harder and harder each week with school so I'm ready for a break.
It's really foggy tonight, and when I was driving home from work, I couldn't see anything, so I was driving like 30 mph in a 45 mph zone. It looks like a scary movie outside lol. *totally random* That's why I named the title for this post...I have not seen a single ray of sunlight for the past 2 1/2 weeks! And I really miss it.
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It is such a blessing to work in a place where you have encouragement from your co-workers to keep my focus on serving the Lord. Like I have stated in past posts, it's been a trying time for. And I feel as though I have compromised myself with the world in a way...and I feel so much guilt and heartache. As today I was explaining to a classmate my plans for when I graduate nursing school and it just seemed as though I was a fool. But then it is good to know when Paul say's in I Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honorable, but we are despised." And I know that the Lord has a wonderful plan in my life, though I can not see it, though I wish I could. But where's the faith in that? But it's good to have comfort even though we don't understand.
But God is Good and He is always right, and I know that it is for my good and for his glory!
***I have some pictures from camp:
Me and my brother
Millie & I
The Youth Choir
Our totally awesome bus "THE BEAST!!!"
May God bless! And hope every one had a wonderful week!
So to bring everything up to date, I received amazing news that I have a 89.4 GPA (1 point away from a A!!!) So I was pretty happy, I gets harder and harder each week with school so I'm ready for a break.
It's really foggy tonight, and when I was driving home from work, I couldn't see anything, so I was driving like 30 mph in a 45 mph zone. It looks like a scary movie outside lol. *totally random* That's why I named the title for this post...I have not seen a single ray of sunlight for the past 2 1/2 weeks! And I really miss it.
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It is such a blessing to work in a place where you have encouragement from your co-workers to keep my focus on serving the Lord. Like I have stated in past posts, it's been a trying time for. And I feel as though I have compromised myself with the world in a way...and I feel so much guilt and heartache. As today I was explaining to a classmate my plans for when I graduate nursing school and it just seemed as though I was a fool. But then it is good to know when Paul say's in I Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honorable, but we are despised." And I know that the Lord has a wonderful plan in my life, though I can not see it, though I wish I could. But where's the faith in that? But it's good to have comfort even though we don't understand.
But God is Good and He is always right, and I know that it is for my good and for his glory!
***I have some pictures from camp:
Me and my brother
Millie & I
The Youth Choir
Our totally awesome bus "THE BEAST!!!"
May God bless! And hope every one had a wonderful week!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
My help cometh from the Lord...
Sorry it's been a while since my update, nursing school has taken most of my time in everything, so it's a little blessing every once in a while to take a deep breath from school and relax. *though right now i'm just taking a break from studying this time of night* :D
But just wanted to let everyone know, that things are going pretty good. But I need a prayer request. As a Christian we fight a battle everyday in our lives; the devil, our flesh, this world. And starting this school has been an eye opener to me, and I get scared. I have lived all my life living for the one who died for me, and loves me no matter what I have done. And right now having the faith to take a stand in a classroom where people don't understand where you are coming from, and why you believe the things you do, it's hard for someone like me. But whoever reads this please pray for me that I can stand for my Lord and not be ashamed to tell other's about him, to pray that when people want to 'conform' me to their way's that my faith and my standards will not falter, because I am fighting this flesh everyday.
I pray that the Lord will use this in his ministry, to help me pass the final/license exam when this is over to provide a good job for me to pay for bible college next fall, but just little things.
But just wanted to let everyone know, that things are going pretty good. But I need a prayer request. As a Christian we fight a battle everyday in our lives; the devil, our flesh, this world. And starting this school has been an eye opener to me, and I get scared. I have lived all my life living for the one who died for me, and loves me no matter what I have done. And right now having the faith to take a stand in a classroom where people don't understand where you are coming from, and why you believe the things you do, it's hard for someone like me. But whoever reads this please pray for me that I can stand for my Lord and not be ashamed to tell other's about him, to pray that when people want to 'conform' me to their way's that my faith and my standards will not falter, because I am fighting this flesh everyday.
I pray that the Lord will use this in his ministry, to help me pass the final/license exam when this is over to provide a good job for me to pay for bible college next fall, but just little things.
Great peace have they which love thy law; and nothing shall offend them." Psalm 119:165
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Is now fully prepared for college!
So everything went fine today during registration, it wasn't as bad as everyone said it was going to be. Though it took forever to get my picture done for our school card...
So I've gotten all my books and they are pretty thick, though for some reason and I don't understand why...is that the books that look the skinniest are the most expensive. The world may never know haha!
And then I got my schedule so I'm gonna be pretty busy this year:
Monday's and Tuesday's - Basic/Advanced Nursing Skills & Vocational Nursing Lab (and that takes all day)
Wednesday's and Friday's are my clinical day's at the hospital
Thursday's are my most busiest day's with - Vocational Nursing Concepts, Growth & Development, Disease & Control Preventions, Anatomy and Physiology *FOR THREE HOURS D:* , and another three hours of Essentials of Med Administration
So I believe that I am going to need a lot of coffee this year!
But also on the other note, I found this pretty awesome verse when I was reading my Bible, on how we need to be a light to this world and share the gospel with others:
"Delivering thee from the people, and from the Gentiles, unto whom now I send thee, To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me."
Acts 26:17 & 18
Bye!!!
So I've gotten all my books and they are pretty thick, though for some reason and I don't understand why...is that the books that look the skinniest are the most expensive. The world may never know haha!
And then I got my schedule so I'm gonna be pretty busy this year:
Monday's and Tuesday's - Basic/Advanced Nursing Skills & Vocational Nursing Lab (and that takes all day)
Wednesday's and Friday's are my clinical day's at the hospital
Thursday's are my most busiest day's with - Vocational Nursing Concepts, Growth & Development, Disease & Control Preventions, Anatomy and Physiology *FOR THREE HOURS D:* , and another three hours of Essentials of Med Administration
So I believe that I am going to need a lot of coffee this year!
But also on the other note, I found this pretty awesome verse when I was reading my Bible, on how we need to be a light to this world and share the gospel with others:
"Delivering thee from the people, and from the Gentiles, unto whom now I send thee, To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me."
Acts 26:17 & 18
Bye!!!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
New Pic!!!
LOL! :D
I'm taking too many pictures of myself on my cell phone!
Please keep me in your prayers for tomorrow!
God Bless :)
Monday, August 17, 2009
"...Thou wilt prepare their heart..."
I believe that I am on a roll these past two weeks with updates :)
Today in church my friend Millie showed me this verse today and I would like to share :)
As school is starting back for most of us again... :(
Next Monday for me lol
As a young adult, I have the fears of everything not being provided, If I could put it to words that way. I think we all know that college is very expensive, especially in today's economy, it is hard to provide for anything or just even have the money to make it through. And it scares me as an 18 year old that I don't have anything that could help me through this year, I fear of my service to the Lord this year, in that I won't be doing what I need to do, or be distracted in some way or another. The amount of debt I will be in at 19, and starting bible college, where I have to be on my own. These might seem like petty little things in comparison to other things. But to me they are big mountains that I feel I cannot climb.
But it is so good to know that I have a God that will provide. I know that I can put my complete faith and trust in him, but even at that I am human...flesh that wants to tear me apart, and put my trust into worry. I know that he has allowed thins in my life for a reason. I know that starting nursing school, is something he is allowing me to do, knowing that it can be very beneficial to his ministry on the mission field. And that through Bible College he is going to provide every step of the way.
I know that even these next two years, I will feel like I want to give up.
And I'm scared.
But the Lord has heard the desires of my heart, and I know that he will prepare my heart as long as I keep looking to him.
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This post is kinda like 'my diary' kinda post.
I needed to write this down.
Today in church my friend Millie showed me this verse today and I would like to share :)
Lord thou hast heard the desires of the humble, thou wilt prepare there heart, thou wilt cause thine ear to hear. Psalms 10:17
As school is starting back for most of us again... :(
Next Monday for me lol
As a young adult, I have the fears of everything not being provided, If I could put it to words that way. I think we all know that college is very expensive, especially in today's economy, it is hard to provide for anything or just even have the money to make it through. And it scares me as an 18 year old that I don't have anything that could help me through this year, I fear of my service to the Lord this year, in that I won't be doing what I need to do, or be distracted in some way or another. The amount of debt I will be in at 19, and starting bible college, where I have to be on my own. These might seem like petty little things in comparison to other things. But to me they are big mountains that I feel I cannot climb.
But it is so good to know that I have a God that will provide. I know that I can put my complete faith and trust in him, but even at that I am human...flesh that wants to tear me apart, and put my trust into worry. I know that he has allowed thins in my life for a reason. I know that starting nursing school, is something he is allowing me to do, knowing that it can be very beneficial to his ministry on the mission field. And that through Bible College he is going to provide every step of the way.
I know that even these next two years, I will feel like I want to give up.
And I'm scared.
But the Lord has heard the desires of my heart, and I know that he will prepare my heart as long as I keep looking to him.
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This post is kinda like 'my diary' kinda post.
I needed to write this down.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I Rest my Case at the Cross
I love this song :)
There's a covenant sweet,
it was written for me,
it's a promise that I could be healed..
from All my sin and my shame,
even heartache and pain,
it was signed and confirmed on a hill.
So I rest my case at the cross,
for now I have someone to champion my cause,
I've been justified,
satisfied,
oh, I have it all,
so I rest my case at the cross.
Don't feel sorry for me
when you see I'm in need,
there's a judge who grants mercy and love,
All my burdens He lifts,
All my sin he forgives,
Every time is won through the blood.
So I rest my case at the cross,
for now I have someone to champion my cause,
I've been justified,
satisfied,
oh, I have it all,
so I rest my case at the cross.
In the cross, in the cross...
be my glory ever,
This covenant is binding
by His blood and His word,
every trial and trouble...
my case will be heard,
I've been justified,
satisfied,
oh, I have it all,
so I rest my case at the cross.
PRAISE HIS NAME!!!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
As a wonderful summer is drawing to a close...
It's been so long again. That I have posted on my blog, I think I'm having a hard time write now just sitting and typing on the computer. LOL
So I think the last time I posted something on here was before we left for camp. So I will try to pack in my summer in this post. We'll after coming home from my trip from El Paso, I started teaching my first Sunday School class (4th-6th grade girls), and it's been 1 month and a week since I've started, and it is such a blessing to teach those young ladies about the Lord and how good he is in our lives. I know that even at 18, I still don't have the knowledge to teach these girls everything, because even I am learning myself, but even the little things have become a blessing to me, I was so nervous that none of the girls would memorize there verses, bring their folders, or just plain out think I'm boring or something Haha :) But week after week these young ladies seem to impress me more and more every time I see them. We just got done with a big lesson on keeping a pure heart and life and my prayer is that they would consider living that pure life for the Lord and for themselves until he provides them with someone wonderful that God intended for them. So for this next yr. before Bible college, it is my prayer that I will be a blessing and example to these girls.
CAMPPPPPP :D
Wow. So much to say for a looooong week :) The preaching was phenomenal from Bro. Jason Gaddis and Bro. Kenny Baldwin they were messages that I needed in my life. At 18 I find it difficult to just stay patient. And most teenagers are. Just staying in the will of the Lord and just to keep falling in love with him and developing my walk with him is very important right now, than finding something else that is just temporary. And I pray that the Lord will give me the patience that I need because I know that the end results will be wonderful. Because our God is good.
My birthday fell at camp again this year...and I am so blessed to have wonderful friends that love me :) Mrs. Toni made me a zinger cake (Twinkie) haha that was in the shape of an '18' and it was cute, I love all my kids on my bus route and they made that day special as well as giving me hugs saying happy birthday, ect... I feel horrible now thinking I had a sour attitude earlier that morning. and I apologize but thank you for making it a wonderful birthday :)
Camp is just a wonderful experience and I wish to say I was going again next year, but school is very important right now. ( I start on the 24th...pretty excited and nervous) but maybe the Lord will provide a way.
This past week we came back from youth confrence and I can say that I have never been so worn out before than when I came back. I went to the College and Career session and the lessons were about marriage and communication, but I felt so awkward in there because I'm not used to being around people my age (or a little older) in a class (besides school...but public school is so much different, than being surrounded with people that want to serve the Lord) my mom asked if I was going to feel that way when I go to Heartland next year and I said probably but I know that it's going to be a wonderful experience.
Also, before we left we had a men's tour group from West Coast Baptist College come through called Sound Doctrine and they were amazing :) It's such a blessing hearing songs that just comfort you. Music has a very powerful influence because I know that I have trouble with it before, but taking the trash out and replacing it with Good godly music soothes the soul and just gives you that spiritual boost when you hear a song that can help you through a trial.
Just like this song I'm listening to right now with a group called Witness! from Heartland Baptist Bible college.... We love to sing the music
"Song's that will point you to an old rugged cross, some with a message that is clear, we're not singing for a claim, we just love lifting Jesus name, We love to sing the music God loves to hear... "
So my fingers are hurting right now lol but this will bring my summer to an end, I register for classes next week and I wish you all a wonderful rest of the summer :D
Bye :)
***And this post is dedicated to the wonderful Mrs. Toni Vinson, whose Birthday is today :) and I just want to say thank you for being a wonderful friend, counselor, and a second mother too me :) You have done so much for me and I thank you for every thing you have done. :)
Love you oh so very much,
Vivi
When you move to Nebraska,u guy's won't be there for long, because I will come kidnap ya'll and then I figure out something at that time then...lol *cues the music from the Wizard of Oz* muhahahahahahahhaaaa lol
Happy Birthday :)
So I think the last time I posted something on here was before we left for camp. So I will try to pack in my summer in this post. We'll after coming home from my trip from El Paso, I started teaching my first Sunday School class (4th-6th grade girls), and it's been 1 month and a week since I've started, and it is such a blessing to teach those young ladies about the Lord and how good he is in our lives. I know that even at 18, I still don't have the knowledge to teach these girls everything, because even I am learning myself, but even the little things have become a blessing to me, I was so nervous that none of the girls would memorize there verses, bring their folders, or just plain out think I'm boring or something Haha :) But week after week these young ladies seem to impress me more and more every time I see them. We just got done with a big lesson on keeping a pure heart and life and my prayer is that they would consider living that pure life for the Lord and for themselves until he provides them with someone wonderful that God intended for them. So for this next yr. before Bible college, it is my prayer that I will be a blessing and example to these girls.
CAMPPPPPP :D
Wow. So much to say for a looooong week :) The preaching was phenomenal from Bro. Jason Gaddis and Bro. Kenny Baldwin they were messages that I needed in my life. At 18 I find it difficult to just stay patient. And most teenagers are. Just staying in the will of the Lord and just to keep falling in love with him and developing my walk with him is very important right now, than finding something else that is just temporary. And I pray that the Lord will give me the patience that I need because I know that the end results will be wonderful. Because our God is good.
My birthday fell at camp again this year...and I am so blessed to have wonderful friends that love me :) Mrs. Toni made me a zinger cake (Twinkie) haha that was in the shape of an '18' and it was cute, I love all my kids on my bus route and they made that day special as well as giving me hugs saying happy birthday, ect... I feel horrible now thinking I had a sour attitude earlier that morning. and I apologize but thank you for making it a wonderful birthday :)
Camp is just a wonderful experience and I wish to say I was going again next year, but school is very important right now. ( I start on the 24th...pretty excited and nervous) but maybe the Lord will provide a way.
This past week we came back from youth confrence and I can say that I have never been so worn out before than when I came back. I went to the College and Career session and the lessons were about marriage and communication, but I felt so awkward in there because I'm not used to being around people my age (or a little older) in a class (besides school...but public school is so much different, than being surrounded with people that want to serve the Lord) my mom asked if I was going to feel that way when I go to Heartland next year and I said probably but I know that it's going to be a wonderful experience.
Also, before we left we had a men's tour group from West Coast Baptist College come through called Sound Doctrine and they were amazing :) It's such a blessing hearing songs that just comfort you. Music has a very powerful influence because I know that I have trouble with it before, but taking the trash out and replacing it with Good godly music soothes the soul and just gives you that spiritual boost when you hear a song that can help you through a trial.
Just like this song I'm listening to right now with a group called Witness! from Heartland Baptist Bible college.... We love to sing the music
"Song's that will point you to an old rugged cross, some with a message that is clear, we're not singing for a claim, we just love lifting Jesus name, We love to sing the music God loves to hear... "
So my fingers are hurting right now lol but this will bring my summer to an end, I register for classes next week and I wish you all a wonderful rest of the summer :D
Bye :)
***And this post is dedicated to the wonderful Mrs. Toni Vinson, whose Birthday is today :) and I just want to say thank you for being a wonderful friend, counselor, and a second mother too me :) You have done so much for me and I thank you for every thing you have done. :)
Love you oh so very much,
Vivi
When you move to Nebraska,u guy's won't be there for long, because I will come kidnap ya'll and then I figure out something at that time then...lol *cues the music from the Wizard of Oz* muhahahahahahahhaaaa lol
Happy Birthday :)
Monday, July 13, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
If we live to be 103...best friends we'll always be
Lol. I'm at world record now with two posts in the same week haha :)
Me and my friend took pictures today before church and I believe they are pretty cute haha :)
It was windy...
And now my favorite one:
So hopefully there will be more on sunday :)
Me and my friend took pictures today before church and I believe they are pretty cute haha :)
It was windy...
And now my favorite one:
So hopefully there will be more on sunday :)
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD
It's pretty late right now. But after reading this passage of beautiful scripture, I just couldn't help but write my thoughts down :)
I remember reading this a couple times before but it seems that it has really spoke to me this morning. And I hope that it does to you as well. It always seems to facinate me when the Lord speaks to us through his word, and I will never get enough of it because he is so good to me.
But now as I write these blessed words down, I am blessed to know that I am secure in the arms of my Lord and that no trials or fears should get in my way. With my savior who loves me.
1.The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2. When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
4. One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to enquire in his temple.
5. For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
I hope this can be a blessing to someone as well as it has done for me.
Don't be afraid to comment!!!
What does this beautiful passage mean to you?
I remember reading this a couple times before but it seems that it has really spoke to me this morning. And I hope that it does to you as well. It always seems to facinate me when the Lord speaks to us through his word, and I will never get enough of it because he is so good to me.
But now as I write these blessed words down, I am blessed to know that I am secure in the arms of my Lord and that no trials or fears should get in my way. With my savior who loves me.
1.The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
It is so good to know that the Lord is my light in this dark world and that I am glad to know that I am saved today because of him never giving up on me. And though I may be caught in this world through troubles and trials, I don't need to be afraid, because when I am weak he is strong and he is my strength in my life.
2. When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
'My heart shall not fear' - I love those words because through him in times of trouble I will be confident, because I know he takes care of me everyday of my life.
4. One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to enquire in his temple.
Now when I read this verse, it touched my heart, Seeing David's desire to please the Lord is what I hope and desire as well in my life. That's why I love reading about David because I can relate to him so much through my life and seeing his dependance on the Lord wants to me to know my Lord more. Knowing the things I desire for him, I must seek through his word, and fellowshiping with him through my prayers to him. I pray that I will never be discouraged enough that I don't want to go to church or want to grow in his word anymore.
5. For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
Praise the Lord! That in times of trouble in our lives he comforts us and will set me upon a rock so I can stand strong in him :)
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
It is good to sing praises to him :) Godly music has changed my life in so many ways.
7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
Though sometimes I feel that the Lord can't hear me, because sometimes it is hard to understand with billions of people in this world, he can hear me. But our God is a BIG God and is wonderful to know that he answers our prayers, and calms our spirts when we are discouraged. I know that when my grandpa died and I went alone on a walk, I feel like I am closer to my Lord and can feel him around me.
8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
And Lord, your face do I seek as well.
9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
And it is good to know through his words that he will NEVER leave us or forsake us. Thank you Lord.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
And I pray through my walk with him that I will wait on the Lord, and that he will strengthen my heart, my faith, my joy in him and that I will never be ashamed to proclaim his goodness with everyone around me.
I hope this can be a blessing to someone as well as it has done for me.
Don't be afraid to comment!!!
What does this beautiful passage mean to you?
Saturday, July 4, 2009
I'm really loving summer right now
Here is another long delayed update.
Nothing that interesting has really happened until now ;)
First of all I would like everyone to meet my best friends little baby boy: Asher Jayden Adams
He is so cuteeeee :)
Besides that, I have been pretty busy I just came back this week from my graduation trip to El Paso, and I loved it all the way. It was my first time flying so I was pretty scared most of the time, I couldn't sleep that night before I left. But the Lord is so good, during that night my mind was filled with godly songs and the verse "God has not given us the spirit of fear..." And then I knew that I didn't need to be afraid because the Lord is in control. And though it is just a little thing to be afraid of with a BIG God. He is still so good to me.
When we arrived, it some how felt that I just came home. I was born in El Paso and just seeing the desert plains, and the beautiful mountains. It is just an amazing wonder of all the things that God created, and the beauty that we all can enjoy today.
***Once I can get the picture on this computer I took a lovely picture of the mountains with the sun setting (it was beautiful) and also the rainbow over the palm tree was pretty too.
We were pretty busy the whole time we were there picking flowers for my great grandmother for her garden, visting family, shopping, helping my great grandma with her picnic for her neighborhood which she was so excited about. I am so glad that me and my grandma were a blessing to her when we were there.
Though I was tired and ready to sleep in my own bed again *lol*
I didn't want to leave.
It just feels good to get away from things once and awhile and come back refreshed and stress free :)
Though I didn't mind all the compliments I got while I was over there. Which was really strange because I never had that before. So I also feel that I had a couple steps ahead in my mountain of gaining self esteem.
Tommorows a busy day. I get to start my first sunday school class (if that is correctly said) with 4th - 6th grade girls and I pretty stoked about it :) I just pray that the Lord would use me in a mighty way, in those girls lives.
AND ALSO I WAS SO EXCITED ABOUT THE 3RD ENSTALMENT OF STREAMS IN THE DESERT TRIO that my grandma bought for me at the church we visted (Hilcrest Baptist Church) they had a bookstore and it was pretty cheap. So I've been listening to it constantly :)
So 2 more weeks till camp. And if I don't post anything by then. You will hear me afterwards. Because 20 more days till I am 18!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY :D
Nothing that interesting has really happened until now ;)
First of all I would like everyone to meet my best friends little baby boy: Asher Jayden Adams
He is so cuteeeee :)
Besides that, I have been pretty busy I just came back this week from my graduation trip to El Paso, and I loved it all the way. It was my first time flying so I was pretty scared most of the time, I couldn't sleep that night before I left. But the Lord is so good, during that night my mind was filled with godly songs and the verse "God has not given us the spirit of fear..." And then I knew that I didn't need to be afraid because the Lord is in control. And though it is just a little thing to be afraid of with a BIG God. He is still so good to me.
When we arrived, it some how felt that I just came home. I was born in El Paso and just seeing the desert plains, and the beautiful mountains. It is just an amazing wonder of all the things that God created, and the beauty that we all can enjoy today.
***Once I can get the picture on this computer I took a lovely picture of the mountains with the sun setting (it was beautiful) and also the rainbow over the palm tree was pretty too.
We were pretty busy the whole time we were there picking flowers for my great grandmother for her garden, visting family, shopping, helping my great grandma with her picnic for her neighborhood which she was so excited about. I am so glad that me and my grandma were a blessing to her when we were there.
Though I was tired and ready to sleep in my own bed again *lol*
I didn't want to leave.
It just feels good to get away from things once and awhile and come back refreshed and stress free :)
Though I didn't mind all the compliments I got while I was over there. Which was really strange because I never had that before. So I also feel that I had a couple steps ahead in my mountain of gaining self esteem.
Tommorows a busy day. I get to start my first sunday school class (if that is correctly said) with 4th - 6th grade girls and I pretty stoked about it :) I just pray that the Lord would use me in a mighty way, in those girls lives.
AND ALSO I WAS SO EXCITED ABOUT THE 3RD ENSTALMENT OF STREAMS IN THE DESERT TRIO that my grandma bought for me at the church we visted (Hilcrest Baptist Church) they had a bookstore and it was pretty cheap. So I've been listening to it constantly :)
So 2 more weeks till camp. And if I don't post anything by then. You will hear me afterwards. Because 20 more days till I am 18!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY :D
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
The life of a graduate
It's not interesting at all...
Though I didn't really expect it to be at all either.
I'm excited now that I get to go to camp after begging on my hands and knees to my boss to let me go. We'll not really...but checking if other co-workers could cover for me that week. Though I don't know if I like the feeling of my 18th birthday being at camp...because I hate getting embarrased. For the past 6 years in my life I believe my birthday has been somewhere except at home except for home...
Let's see...
1. For my 10th birthday I was at Carlsbad Caverns
2,3. Can't really remember
4. For my 13th birthday I was at Ft. Worth, TX for a Youth Rally
5. For my 14th birthday I was coming home from Youth Confrence and ended up having it with our youth group at a gas station
6. For my 15th birthday IT WAS AT HOME!!!!!!! :D
7. For my 16th bithday close to confrence but I think I did have it at home
8. For my 17th birthday I was at camp in Eufala, Ok
9. and no for my 18th...it's going to be at the same place as last year
I wonder how my parents feel now....I've never really asked them...but they let me go to all the activites :)
But right now summer is not fun...yet it's just day two.
Working doesn't count.
So I love everyone in my church apparently they held a suprise graduation party for me sunday night and I was pretty shocked it's a long story but has a happy ending.
I'm guessing our dreams do come true lol.
So I bought these sandles yesterday
and I am in love with them :)
My friend say's I'm getting REALLY 'girly' right now...
Though I didn't really expect it to be at all either.
I'm excited now that I get to go to camp after begging on my hands and knees to my boss to let me go. We'll not really...but checking if other co-workers could cover for me that week. Though I don't know if I like the feeling of my 18th birthday being at camp...because I hate getting embarrased. For the past 6 years in my life I believe my birthday has been somewhere except at home except for home...
Let's see...
1. For my 10th birthday I was at Carlsbad Caverns
2,3. Can't really remember
4. For my 13th birthday I was at Ft. Worth, TX for a Youth Rally
5. For my 14th birthday I was coming home from Youth Confrence and ended up having it with our youth group at a gas station
6. For my 15th birthday IT WAS AT HOME!!!!!!! :D
7. For my 16th bithday close to confrence but I think I did have it at home
8. For my 17th birthday I was at camp in Eufala, Ok
*Side note* It's really funny though...once everyone knew it was my birthday some guy started to pretty much stalk me, I was ready one of my books in the gym and our chior director was sitting a couple of rows behind me and this guy came up to me and asked me if I liked Dr. Pepper, I felt really bad because I don't like Dr. Pepper at all...so I told him no and apparently he already bought the drink and was going to give it to me, so then he tried to offer me his bandana and...ya I think I broke his heart...I couldn't even date then. So I really pray that something like that won't happen again this year. ;)
9. and no for my 18th...it's going to be at the same place as last year
I wonder how my parents feel now....I've never really asked them...but they let me go to all the activites :)
But right now summer is not fun...yet it's just day two.
Working doesn't count.
So I love everyone in my church apparently they held a suprise graduation party for me sunday night and I was pretty shocked it's a long story but has a happy ending.
I'm guessing our dreams do come true lol.
So I bought these sandles yesterday
and I am in love with them :)
My friend say's I'm getting REALLY 'girly' right now...
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