How deep the Father's Love for us

Perfection: The quality or state of being perfect; a state of completeness and flawlessness

In our lives, we can never gain perfection. In my life I wish I could in some way come close to grasping it, but I fail everytime. We all do. I seem to find myself looking for ways to improve myself, whether it's the way I look, how I do in school, at the hospital, and where I seem to fail so many times more...my walk with the Lord. If there was an easy road to gain perfection, I can't seem to find it. And I never will. The only thing that will bring me close to even cross paths with "perfection" is the holy word. We are to be "Christ-like" and Being in that likeness, and trying to live our lives the way our Savior walked, we come closer to living that way. But in his perfection, I still marvel at the love that he has for us. Because of my Savior, I can live the life I live today. Though I fail him many times, he is still there waiting with arms wide open, and is always willing to bring me back to the place where I belong and that is His will. Though I desire with all my heart to serve my Savior, the one who laid down his life for me, the one who paid my ransom. I never deserved in any way his love and his mercy, And by his wonderful grace, I am saved, and I am forever his. In my life I want to be perfect, not for selfish gains, but to be perfect in the eyes of my Savior and Lord. But knowing that if I delight myself in him and I desire to know more of Him and meditate in his law, he will grant me my desires and though I will never be perfect, my Savior still loves me and he will bless me.

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocing voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that helf Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I knoww that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast inJesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

As the soft breeze blows, stand still and enjoy every moment around you...

“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” Psalms 37:4

Well it has been another long delay, with six more months left till I graduate, things have been getting a little more hectic in my life. So it's been one pretty crazy rollercoster ride so far. When you are looking into a career, when you don't know when anything could happen at any moment and when you have peoples lives in your hands, it gets a little frightening and frustrating. Because I will stand there at their bed and wonder if this is a lost soul, is it someone who I could be a testimony to, but then they tell us we are not allowed to express our 'beliefs' and that we must be a competent nurse and just do our job. So all I pray is that I can be just a testimony to that person. But then, sometimes I still sit and wonder is this what I'm really meant to do. I'm only 18. But then I have to remind myself that God has placed me here for a reason, and he has brought me this far for a reason and that I know I'm not going to fail because He has great and wonderful plans for me and my future, though I don't know what they are, and that I know there are going to be those times in my life when I don't think I will be able to face those storms, I know that He is good and that if I delight myself in Him, he will give me my desires. That is how wonderful and amazing our God is. :)

Though I am afraid and I get weary He is still there, He is still willing to help me through any circumstances that I face, my God will help me through it all.

Completed my first semester of nursing school!!!

Okay, now I can say that this is a record on how long I have not posted on here :) And a lot of stuff has happened since I've last posted on this blog!

But I happy to say that I have survived my first semester of college and now I have two more to go, before I can officially become an LVN! I'm really excited now, but I'm glad to just to be able to relax and not have the worries of school on my shoulders. The Lord has been so good to me since I've started because I know there were plenty of times when I felt that I was going to fail and not make it, and even to the point that I wanted to quit and find something new to do. But he helped me, because he is my strength, my rock, and my salvation, and he is so good that he let me realized that this was the path he wanted me on. And all I can say is that it is for my good and for his glory. My theme verse that I adopted this year at school was Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me." And has that been true, I sat before every test and quoted that verse till I truly believed that I can do all things through him. And it has made me realized that I need to have more faith and trust in my Lord, than always worrying about the negative.

So I'm ready to face all the stressfulness (lol) of nursing school when I go back in January with a new spirit, of doing all things through Christ!

But I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still alive. and will try to post more often!

Oh where, oh where has the sun disappeared to?

So here is another long delayed post again, in which I'm 'supposed' to be studying but yet get distracted by other wonderful things that do not involve studying for the nervous system.

So to bring everything up to date, I received amazing news that I have a 89.4 GPA (1 point away from a A!!!) So I was pretty happy, I gets harder and harder each week with school so I'm ready for a break.

It's really foggy tonight, and when I was driving home from work, I couldn't see anything, so I was driving like 30 mph in a 45 mph zone. It looks like a scary movie outside lol. *totally random* That's why I named the title for this post...I have not seen a single ray of sunlight for the past 2 1/2 weeks! And I really miss it.

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It is such a blessing to work in a place where you have encouragement from your co-workers to keep my focus on serving the Lord. Like I have stated in past posts, it's been a trying time for. And I feel as though I have compromised myself with the world in a way...and I feel so much guilt and heartache. As today I was explaining to a classmate my plans for when I graduate nursing school and it just seemed as though I was a fool. But then it is good to know when Paul say's in I Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honorable, but we are despised." And I know that the Lord has a wonderful plan in my life, though I can not see it, though I wish I could. But where's the faith in that? But it's good to have comfort even though we don't understand.

But God is Good and He is always right, and I know that it is for my good and for his glory!

***I have some pictures from camp:

Me and my brother



Millie & I



The Youth Choir



Our totally awesome bus "THE BEAST!!!"



May God bless! And hope every one had a wonderful week!

My help cometh from the Lord...

Sorry it's been a while since my update, nursing school has taken most of my time in everything, so it's a little blessing every once in a while to take a deep breath from school and relax. *though right now i'm just taking a break from studying this time of night* :D

But just wanted to let everyone know, that things are going pretty good. But I need a prayer request. As a Christian we fight a battle everyday in our lives; the devil, our flesh, this world. And starting this school has been an eye opener to me, and I get scared. I have lived all my life living for the one who died for me, and loves me no matter what I have done. And right now having the faith to take a stand in a classroom where people don't understand where you are coming from, and why you believe the things you do, it's hard for someone like me. But whoever reads this please pray for me that I can stand for my Lord and not be ashamed to tell other's about him, to pray that when people want to 'conform' me to their way's that my faith and my standards will not falter, because I am fighting this flesh everyday.

I pray that the Lord will use this in his ministry, to help me pass the final/license exam when this is over to provide a good job for me to pay for bible college next fall, but just little things.

Great peace have they which love thy law; and nothing shall offend them." Psalm 119:165

Is now fully prepared for college!

So everything went fine today during registration, it wasn't as bad as everyone said it was going to be. Though it took forever to get my picture done for our school card...

So I've gotten all my books and they are pretty thick, though for some reason and I don't understand why...is that the books that look the skinniest are the most expensive. The world may never know haha!

And then I got my schedule so I'm gonna be pretty busy this year:

Monday's and Tuesday's - Basic/Advanced Nursing Skills & Vocational Nursing Lab (and that takes all day)

Wednesday's and Friday's are my clinical day's at the hospital

Thursday's are my most busiest day's with - Vocational Nursing Concepts, Growth & Development, Disease & Control Preventions, Anatomy and Physiology *FOR THREE HOURS D:* , and another three hours of Essentials of Med Administration

So I believe that I am going to need a lot of coffee this year!

But also on the other note, I found this pretty awesome verse when I was reading my Bible, on how we need to be a light to this world and share the gospel with others:

"Delivering thee from the people, and from the Gentiles, unto whom now I send thee, To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me."

Acts 26:17 & 18

Bye!!!

New Pic!!!

LOL! :D

I'm taking too many pictures of myself on my cell phone!

Please keep me in your prayers for tomorrow!

God Bless :)